You're beautiful

Cryy .

Wednesday, September 22, 2010 9/22/2010 01:28:00 AM

Seriously siaa .

Miss youhh guys !

We have been separated for lyk 2 yrs .

I SERIOUSLY MISS YOUHH GUYS EFFING MUCH !

We will always hang out together during Haryy Raya n stuffs .

Since my mum passed away 3 yrs ago ...

Ive been busyy with myy Father's side n just going to myy sister's house .

I used to spent tyme sleeping over at Atiqaah's house , Kak Yana's house .

n etc .

But now ? We hardly see each other .

Whn I look at th photo youhh guys took dys yr on EID whn i was not wif youhh guys ,

I felt left out .

Youhh guys, especially Atiqaah , hav been asking me to be with u guys .

But everytyme i had a chance to see u , sth baad will happen .

God , giv me strength .

Now Im crying lyk hell due to mishing my cozins soo damn much .

Giv me strength to take hold of th sadness whn ppl ask me bout myy mum .

Im happy .. But thrs still 2 or 3 pieces of my heart were not connected in myy heart to hav th lyfe tht I wanted with youhh guys .

Give me strength to th future whn myy dad is gnna knw bout sth tht i dunn wnna tell to myy readers cause its too personal .

Seriouslyy .

Im shivering due to too much of crying .

Thrs sth tht I wnna do .

N tht is to see yr face , face to face ..

Every single tyme whn I want .

I hope I will get th chance to see youhh guys again whn KakakAdeq has give birth .

N we will all be crowding around her in th hospital n capturing great memories lyk wht we did whn Luqfi was just born .

Im imagining tht scene .. n I hope it will be real someday .

Give me strength ....